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Why is it like that? You know it is not what is should be and yet, you are staying where you are for years.
Some people say "leave, get divorce".
To me, it seems like impossible thing to do. We spend 13 years together. I dated him since I was 17. I never knew anybody else, I was never alone.
But,
I felt lonely, unhappy, unloved for very long time, then did mistake by getting involved in EA, later on PA. I know I should give up on OM, get divorce and start my life over again without any of those two man. But how? Each time when I feel like I am ready, I start to think about my H positives and it is not helping. Then wrong things will happen and I am where I started.
Why am I so scared to leave? Where do you find strength to move on?
Some people say "leave, get divorce".
To me, it seems like impossible thing to do. We spend 13 years together. I dated him since I was 17. I never knew anybody else, I was never alone.
But,
I felt lonely, unhappy, unloved for very long time, then did mistake by getting involved in EA, later on PA. I know I should give up on OM, get divorce and start my life over again without any of those two man. But how? Each time when I feel like I am ready, I start to think about my H positives and it is not helping. Then wrong things will happen and I am where I started.
Why am I so scared to leave? Where do you find strength to move on?