Me and my husband are married for 7 years now, 1 child.
We have issues every now and then, like every normal couple, but we both make efforts to make our marriage work. It is not easy, actually it is very painful, because we don't match and we often hurt each other. We don't do it on purpose, but it happens.
Then this guy came into my life, about an year and a half ago. He said he wants to date me, I said that won't happen because I am married. I can't blame him for being attracted, it could happen to anyone, but once you know that the other one is not available, you should just stop.
He's a nice one, though. We made good friends. I thought that soon he wil get over his affection, 'cause I didn't give him any hope that we could be more that friends. I used to tell him that he must just go out and find a girl, the world is full of single girls. I never spoke to him about my problems inside the marriage. But problems were not that serious at that time.
Then he went out of the country and I didn't see him for 9 months. For these 9 months, I totally forgot about him.
But the last year was very hard for my marriage. We went through times of pressure, not talking to each other for months, not having sex for months, then my husband said he wanted to seperate for a while (it was like a little breakup for me). I was feeling ignored, misunderstood, not appreciated and so on. Though we married for love, and we still love each other, sometimes I feel like we just can't make each other happy. Oh, yes, we were both considering seperation.
Then my admirer came back. It's been a while, I thought he was over me. But no. His affection was even stronger than before. That crasy idea about true love and... you know people, I just don't understand! What can make you fall for another man's woman?
I fell for him. He speaks so beautifully... all these words I never hear at home. But you know, I'm not that stupid. There is a difference between "falling in love" and "love". And true love comes later, when it's realised. Now, he deffinitely believes in what he sais, but still... I think there's something wrong about it.
We never had physical contact, but still I feel bad. I feel bad for being emotionally unfaithfull, for I let it happen.
I don't know what is to follow now.
I don't know if my marriage will survive, or we'll seperate.
I will not cheat.
Just... please try to explain me, what makes a single guy fall for a married woman? What kind of a person would do that to himself?
Got to go now. I'll keep posting.
