It's all fixed now. All's well that ends well.I apologize for not replying individually to each of you. I had posted previously, but as dumb as it sounds, I was editing my post to add some info - and ended up deleting most of the post. As a result, the thread was locked- for there was no context to my issues. If had pasted the entire the contents of my post elsewhere, I could have added the deleted portion, but as the old adage goes, hindsight is 20: 20. Once again apologies for the mess up.
[B][I]EleGirl[/I][/B]: I want to thank you for your advice. I was not aware that I could go for counseling myself. I will see a doctor/counsellor and seek treatment. I might be depressed as you say. I must say that in most situations I have been very strong, and may be should do the same here too.
Most people go through depression when things are not going well in their lives. Sadly depression makes it hard to clearly address the issues and fix them. If you fix your depression, the solution will be much easier to figure out and to follow through on. (Assuming you are depressed. I'm not diagnosing you here. Just replying to what I think might be part of the problem you are having.)
Often a person can very responsible in their professional life but their personal life gets the better of them. Don't beat up on yourself about that. There are ways to fix this.I am sorry if I sounded like someone that does not take responsibility - that I am blaming the others involved. In all situations (maybe this is an exception), I stand by my actions and inactions - I do not blame others for things that happened to me. Rightfully said, there might have been a better way to deal with it. Probably I was too much consumed by the situation, felt ashamed or guilty of inaction - which is why my post might come as one where I have shifted the blame.
We have a lot of good people here.To everyone else that has provided inputs, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. You could have chosen to just ignore this as "another rant:". That you chose to respond is something I do not take lightly.