I am a 44 year old married woman with 6 children. My husband and I have struggled through 9 years. Happiness has been lost a long time ago. I am not blaming him for all, however, I have been begging him to listen to me for at least 5 years. I have been distant and feeling trapped. I am a stay home mother who has gotten a college degree. He is a hard worker and good father, our children range from 24-6 year old twins. 4 still living at home. For awhile now, I haven't felt physical attraction . For a long time intimacy has felt like part of my duties. Recently I have fallen in love with a woman. I need help badly.