In order to get an acurate idea about my story... you kinda had to read my Origional post "New Marriage...Bad Desission...Need Guidence" Before commenting on this one, please read my first, if you haven't already, because it makes a difference on the outcome.
My husband went to the room earlier, and came out with a handwritten letter to me. I feel somewhat uncomfortable posting it, but I need to know if this sounds sincere and I should overlook all the problems I talked about in my first post... OR if this sounds like a desperate plee, comming from a well educated, and experienced 41 year old, who's got "game"
It reads:
"My dearest wife,
I guess I just wanted to write you a note. A love letter? An open letter to the woman I love most? Yeah, I think all those are accurate. My love and admiration for you are so unrivaled in my life, that maybe I fail to show it or communicate just how deep my connection is with who you are and what you've done for me, or where we will end up. My nightly ritual is laying down next to you, rubbing your lower back softly, so as not to wake you up, and sit there, tho more like laying there and marvel at the beautiful god's gift I have been given. I'm overwealmed at the sacrifices you've made and the love you have given me, and the son you gave me, and the blessings you've bestowed upon me. It sometimes take me like a wave - I fight these feelings of inadequacy and almost inferiority when I think of all you've done for us and the deeply persona sacrifices you made for us to be together. Please allow me some time to build my own strength. My own sence of place. My own confidence that I can be and will be a wonderful husband to go along with being a best friend. I know Im not there yet. My job situation has left us yearning for money, and you don't have alot for yourself. It pains me inside knowing this. Sometimes it keeps me up at night. I do wish to be a better husband, a better father, a better friend. I work on these things, believe it or not. I struggle. I look at you and I'm filled with love, passion, strenght and amazment. What a true gift! You are my wife! It's a blessing and a pride I drip with. I can't imagine my life without you. How empty and devoid of laughter it would be. Devoid of everything. Even the frustrations. Who else would stay ontop of me to eat healthier, to drink healthier, dream the good dream and do the right things? I haven't done drugs in a year for a reason. You took away the need. you stripped away a long running sadness and made things real. You make me happy, you make me smile. You make me think how foolish a man I was, and hw much work is ahead of me to accomplish truly being the Wonderful and Effective husband I need to be. My beloved wife, you make me want to be there. To be here with you. No one esle could do. Nothing else matters. You are without a doubt my pride and joy. With you I will climb the world to make you proud of me. Without you I cannot be. I promise better days and brighter things. I love you with all my heart and soul. I will protect you and comfort you, as you comfort me with kisses and smiles. I love "Isabella". I love my wife. I love you my best friend. Without you...no life. Nolight. I want to see, far and deep. Me and you my dear wife. Together, forever. Amen"
I have to be honest, it made me cry the first time I read it, but made me wonder, the second time. Any input would be GREATLY appreciated! I'm stuck and confused.
My husband went to the room earlier, and came out with a handwritten letter to me. I feel somewhat uncomfortable posting it, but I need to know if this sounds sincere and I should overlook all the problems I talked about in my first post... OR if this sounds like a desperate plee, comming from a well educated, and experienced 41 year old, who's got "game"
It reads:
"My dearest wife,
I guess I just wanted to write you a note. A love letter? An open letter to the woman I love most? Yeah, I think all those are accurate. My love and admiration for you are so unrivaled in my life, that maybe I fail to show it or communicate just how deep my connection is with who you are and what you've done for me, or where we will end up. My nightly ritual is laying down next to you, rubbing your lower back softly, so as not to wake you up, and sit there, tho more like laying there and marvel at the beautiful god's gift I have been given. I'm overwealmed at the sacrifices you've made and the love you have given me, and the son you gave me, and the blessings you've bestowed upon me. It sometimes take me like a wave - I fight these feelings of inadequacy and almost inferiority when I think of all you've done for us and the deeply persona sacrifices you made for us to be together. Please allow me some time to build my own strength. My own sence of place. My own confidence that I can be and will be a wonderful husband to go along with being a best friend. I know Im not there yet. My job situation has left us yearning for money, and you don't have alot for yourself. It pains me inside knowing this. Sometimes it keeps me up at night. I do wish to be a better husband, a better father, a better friend. I work on these things, believe it or not. I struggle. I look at you and I'm filled with love, passion, strenght and amazment. What a true gift! You are my wife! It's a blessing and a pride I drip with. I can't imagine my life without you. How empty and devoid of laughter it would be. Devoid of everything. Even the frustrations. Who else would stay ontop of me to eat healthier, to drink healthier, dream the good dream and do the right things? I haven't done drugs in a year for a reason. You took away the need. you stripped away a long running sadness and made things real. You make me happy, you make me smile. You make me think how foolish a man I was, and hw much work is ahead of me to accomplish truly being the Wonderful and Effective husband I need to be. My beloved wife, you make me want to be there. To be here with you. No one esle could do. Nothing else matters. You are without a doubt my pride and joy. With you I will climb the world to make you proud of me. Without you I cannot be. I promise better days and brighter things. I love you with all my heart and soul. I will protect you and comfort you, as you comfort me with kisses and smiles. I love "Isabella". I love my wife. I love you my best friend. Without you...no life. Nolight. I want to see, far and deep. Me and you my dear wife. Together, forever. Amen"
I have to be honest, it made me cry the first time I read it, but made me wonder, the second time. Any input would be GREATLY appreciated! I'm stuck and confused.
