I was married for 20 years and husband gave me the ILYBINILWY speech about six months ago. He moved out three months ago. For the first few weeks, I cried a lot. Have stopped crying other than maybe once a week something will get to me. I've tried to keep myself busy by going out with friends, doing things for me, etc. The problem is that tonight it really hit me that I think I'm just pretending to be "ok". Inside, I am still really, really sad and I have an overwhelming fear that I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. I am just really lonely and miss my best friend. He, on the other hand, has totally moved on.