For unknown reasons, today is a really bad for me. I feel extremely emotional about my divorce and am kind of stuck re-living some of the events over the summer that lead to my H walking out on me and my son. I was proud of myself not less than two nights ago for planning a trip with girlfriends for the spring and for starting to feel like I am moving on a bit and now I've gone backward. I actually was crying this morning and my stomach was upset much like it was all summer as I dealt with the ending of my 17+ year marriage. Today is not an anniversary or other special day that is bringing me down, but for some reason I can't shake the thoughts of my H and my marriage today. I can guarantee you that he hasn't given me or my feelings a second thought so why am I still stuck trying to figure out what happened to my marriage? I feel like such a failure.