Okay. Three years have past and my husband has not had a job in over two year of these years. I feel like he is felling in all things except christ. When I prayed for my husband the number one thing I asked for was a God fearing man. But I am starting not want to be with my husband.... Sometimes it is sexually or just want to totally separate. During our last argument/breakup I had no feelings towards him. I did not want to end on a bad note, but no I did not feel hurt or sad about him leaving. I actually want him to leave bc everything about him turns me off. He does not know how to touch, kiss, make love etc... to me. I don't even think we communicate well with each other. Okay the relationship is at a strain to where he does not go anywhere with me. We do nothing together. I don't want to cheat, but when we have sex I think of other man. I think this has made my sex with him a little better, but it feels wrong. I wonder if I should go ahead in cheat. What should I do. I am going to pray and ask God what is going on. Comments welcome.