Well I went to church tonight with my stbxw's parents who treat me just like a son. Anyway near the end of the service there was a little clip played about people writing on card about "god was with me when" one of them showed someone who had wrote "as my marriage fell apart". I thought I was going to break down right there. I kept it together at least. I walked out alone and it was snowing. And it hit me. I love snow and could not txt her to tell her it was snowing. Now she just txted me, and I haven't heard from her since thanksgiving day when she "just had to come get her snowboarding stuff", and asked me if she can use the credit card to get some food. The only reason she would need to use it is because she went snowboarding with "her friend" and did not bring along her purse. Her friend being the guy she has spent massive amounts of time with, got divorced just before she left me, and is 8 years older than her. Life sucks.