Sound like you're numb. Might be a good time to file D so he doesn't drag you down with him. He needs to hit bottom on his own. You can always be there after if you at willing.I have posted recently about all of H's lies, and the stuff I have caught him doing, how he refused to be honest and transparent, show any proof things have not resumed. And by things I mean, spending vast amounts of money on strip clubs, phone sex and calling prostitutes. We went to therapy for about a year and a half, didn't work, and so on. I don't want to repost it all over again.
The new thing, money seems to be disappearing now. lol. In the last month and a half, there is $4,900 missing here and there, taken out little by little. Yet, he only buys 'lunch' from time to time. lol. What can I do/say? At this point all I can do is laugh. That's how unfazed and numb I've become. I could do the usual and get upset, ask for an explanation which would then lead us to bad excuses that I easily breakdown and explain how they never make sense.
I can see that the only thing I did by going to therapy, was waste more time by his side. The MC basically believes that If i have not caught him with someone, then he must be fine. When I ask him to show me proof, he can't. I should just believe out of the goodness of my heart, i guess. In a world where people do credit checks, background checks, etc for our own safety when hiring people and what not, I should just take the word of a man who has blown most of our money, year after year, on other women. My last day in MC I said to her, what do you need a hotel receipt? cuz I got it, a call log? I got it, I have it all, except a picture of two people together, lol. So I guess, it doesn't count. I should just imagine that everything is fine behind my back.
I guess this is more of a rant, because things have become absurd. Is anyone else just so used to the crap their spouse does that you now feel unmoved? As if you've heard each lie 100x before and now all you can do is yawn, you can't really even get angry anymore.
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