I'm very sorry.My father passed away. I think he had a stroke. I held his hand and said goodbye, but I am still in shock. For most of my life, he was my best friend. I talked to him every day. I don't know how I will get through this, or even if I can.
It's not everyone who gets to leave this life having their hand held by someone who loves them. In your heart there will always be what he gave you; he won't ever be too far away.