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My husband left me 2 months ago, informing me that he was ending our 18 year marriage. He put all the blame of our failed marriage and his unhappiness on me.
Things had been rough for about 3 1/2 years and I thought it was mid life crisis. The therapist I consulted said that based on his behavior, mid life crisis was probable and to leave him alone, or he'd get further from me. 2 1/2 months ago he stopped coming home some nights and when he did, it was well after midnight. He'd pick fights with me and leave. He denied another woman, but eventually admitted it, but said that it was over, but he was still leaving me because he stopped loving me and regretted marrying me. He wouldn't tell me where he was living and with whom. I have left him alone. A few weeks after he left me I learned through the grapevine that he and his girlfriend were buying a house together. I haven't even been served separation or divorce papers yet.
I know that I deserve better. I know that I don't deserve his abusive behavior. I just can't get over this hurt. How long will it be so painful? This is consuming. I've lost 37 pounds and can't concentrate. Yes, I am going to a counselor and am taking medication. I've never known such loss and sadness before. Thank you.
Things had been rough for about 3 1/2 years and I thought it was mid life crisis. The therapist I consulted said that based on his behavior, mid life crisis was probable and to leave him alone, or he'd get further from me. 2 1/2 months ago he stopped coming home some nights and when he did, it was well after midnight. He'd pick fights with me and leave. He denied another woman, but eventually admitted it, but said that it was over, but he was still leaving me because he stopped loving me and regretted marrying me. He wouldn't tell me where he was living and with whom. I have left him alone. A few weeks after he left me I learned through the grapevine that he and his girlfriend were buying a house together. I haven't even been served separation or divorce papers yet.
I know that I deserve better. I know that I don't deserve his abusive behavior. I just can't get over this hurt. How long will it be so painful? This is consuming. I've lost 37 pounds and can't concentrate. Yes, I am going to a counselor and am taking medication. I've never known such loss and sadness before. Thank you.