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My STBX will have all her crap moved out by the end of the week. However, I've found myself going through what was "originally our" stuff... one thing I found was our photo albums, we had a nude couple photo album done before and had a few more fun shoots from time to time. I errr... found myself choking my chicken over my STBX... I feel pathetic!!!! =/
Is this normal? Or am I fked up? I feel rather disgusted with myself and the last time I did this I threw up. But I can't seem to get off looking at porn - ejaculate without the orgasm. It makes me think of the good times too and that hurts... bleh. Hell it's bad enough that I have to be choking my chicken with my hands until I'm sure STBX is emotionally stable and won't go all "femme fatale" on me getting laid. *sigh* Am I screwed up?
Is this normal? Or am I fked up? I feel rather disgusted with myself and the last time I did this I threw up. But I can't seem to get off looking at porn - ejaculate without the orgasm. It makes me think of the good times too and that hurts... bleh. Hell it's bad enough that I have to be choking my chicken with my hands until I'm sure STBX is emotionally stable and won't go all "femme fatale" on me getting laid. *sigh* Am I screwed up?