Right now, I am at a state of confusion. I left my husband 2 1/2 years ago and got my own place. We have two kids and I am currently 8 months pregnant with our third. Even though we are separated, we still have sex here and there. I still love him very much and I want us to work our marriage out but I am also very scared. When we were together, my husband was mentally, physically and emotionally abusive. I was the provider so I was the only one that paid the bills and handled all the finances. He was not faithful, honest, dependable, or supportive. When things do not go his way, he throws tantrums and takes it out on the children (he will not watch them or do something he promised them he would do). He thought that it hurt me but I made him realize that it hurt the kids and not me. It did affect them a lot and it left me to clean up those broken pieces. It is hard trying to explain to a 5 and 2 yrs why their dad breaks his promises when he gets mad. He allowed his family to be in our business, they are very negative people, and they are about control. I was not happy at all. Moreover, nobody was going to control something that I bust my back to have. As of now, we have been married for five years and since I left, he has gotten better in some areas. He lives with his parents and to me he still is not as stable and self-sufficient as he needs to be. He is 31yrs and I am 24yrs. I know he loves me still, but I am not sure how much. He is not abusive in any kind of way anymore. We talk a lot more. He is getting better with trying to understand why I was unhappy. My concern is how long it will last. I am scared that if I mend my marriage, my needs will not be met and I will be unhappy once again. I am happy now with being on my own, but I miss having my family together as a whole. I truly miss my husband. Should I continue with the way things are, or should I fix my marriage? Is it just my pregnant hormones that are making me feel this way? Please someone tell me something!