I think I'm going NUTS!!!! One minute, I'm ready to leave my hubby for a better life and then the next minute, I don't care about our finances...as long as we are together...thats all I need.....:rofl:
This roller-coaster has been going on for about 10 years...sometimes I don't know which way to turn...I pray that our living arrangement would get better...but it doesn't.
Here...Let me explain what is going on...
Mike is my 3rd marriage....my 1st ended in divorce and I was widowed in my 2nd...about 15 months after the death of hubby #2, I ran into Mike...Mike and I have known one another for over 20 years (we had actually dated when I was 16 and he 21)...When Mike learned of my hubands passing and how long it had been....he asked if I were dating...well...long story short...we were married 2 mo. later and have been married for a little over 12 years.
When we married...I had a house (no payment - left to me by late hubby), I had a new car(making payments) and I was drawing SSI for my boys, due to late hubby, plus working...needless to say I could make ALL my bills and have left-over spending money, which I would spend on my boys or myself and put a little in savings. About 6 mo. into the marriage, I started to notice money was not going as far as it use to and I needed to make changes...after a year I was talked into selling my home that my late hubby left me along with the 12 acres...got quite a big chunk for all that...enough to put a hugh down payment on a home and furnished the new home plus live a pretty good life style. 4 years later I would have lost it all..in those 4 years I would have bought Mike 4 or 5 trucks, a number of guns and knives for hunting, gave his greedy son tons of money and then had to put up with Mike not working for 7 months...next thing I knew...there was no money and I was losing my house...that was the first time I asked Mike to leave.**(please notice...I was not buying me and my boys anything...as a matter of fact...I had to work an extra job to put school clothes on my boy's backs...:scratchhead
I don't have to tell you that I took him back...do I?
Well I tought it was gonna be different...so I did .....I took him back and we moved to a rental...that was more expensive then the mortgage we were paying...so fast-forward here...after that house we ended-up moving 5 more times and this last time (#6) has us living with his sister and brother inlaw...in a trailer, paying $680 per mo.(that's rent and 1/2 all the bills) well...we've been here right at 2 years and its driving me CRAZY...we are worst off now then we were when we first moved in...I have no life just work and come home...sister cooks because of the hours I put in...I don't grocery shop, because we have no money after we pay "them" and pay for other outstanding bills...
My job brings in very little money...but I work for the benefits (we're well covered)
and his job is very low pay...so when the pressure builds and builds and builds..I find myself wishing myself single or with someone who knows how to budget. I have a very hard life and I blame "him"...I know I have not said enough for all this to make sense and my reasoning behind my insane madness...but I have to go for right now...I can explain and get into more detail tomorrow...until then TTFN.
This roller-coaster has been going on for about 10 years...sometimes I don't know which way to turn...I pray that our living arrangement would get better...but it doesn't.
Here...Let me explain what is going on...
Mike is my 3rd marriage....my 1st ended in divorce and I was widowed in my 2nd...about 15 months after the death of hubby #2, I ran into Mike...Mike and I have known one another for over 20 years (we had actually dated when I was 16 and he 21)...When Mike learned of my hubands passing and how long it had been....he asked if I were dating...well...long story short...we were married 2 mo. later and have been married for a little over 12 years.
When we married...I had a house (no payment - left to me by late hubby), I had a new car(making payments) and I was drawing SSI for my boys, due to late hubby, plus working...needless to say I could make ALL my bills and have left-over spending money, which I would spend on my boys or myself and put a little in savings. About 6 mo. into the marriage, I started to notice money was not going as far as it use to and I needed to make changes...after a year I was talked into selling my home that my late hubby left me along with the 12 acres...got quite a big chunk for all that...enough to put a hugh down payment on a home and furnished the new home plus live a pretty good life style. 4 years later I would have lost it all..in those 4 years I would have bought Mike 4 or 5 trucks, a number of guns and knives for hunting, gave his greedy son tons of money and then had to put up with Mike not working for 7 months...next thing I knew...there was no money and I was losing my house...that was the first time I asked Mike to leave.**(please notice...I was not buying me and my boys anything...as a matter of fact...I had to work an extra job to put school clothes on my boy's backs...:scratchhead
I don't have to tell you that I took him back...do I?
Well I tought it was gonna be different...so I did .....I took him back and we moved to a rental...that was more expensive then the mortgage we were paying...so fast-forward here...after that house we ended-up moving 5 more times and this last time (#6) has us living with his sister and brother inlaw...in a trailer, paying $680 per mo.(that's rent and 1/2 all the bills) well...we've been here right at 2 years and its driving me CRAZY...we are worst off now then we were when we first moved in...I have no life just work and come home...sister cooks because of the hours I put in...I don't grocery shop, because we have no money after we pay "them" and pay for other outstanding bills...
My job brings in very little money...but I work for the benefits (we're well covered)
and his job is very low pay...so when the pressure builds and builds and builds..I find myself wishing myself single or with someone who knows how to budget. I have a very hard life and I blame "him"...I know I have not said enough for all this to make sense and my reasoning behind my insane madness...but I have to go for right now...I can explain and get into more detail tomorrow...until then TTFN.