I tried everything to reconcile. I havent given up but will leave it a bit as christmas is here and we have kids and i dont want to ruin it. She said she wants to be friends but dont friends return call, make time for each other and enjoy updating each other about thier lives. She cant seem to do this with any consistancy desopite us having 2 kids together. Shes very nice and then stops communicationg. I think all im wanted for now is money and being a dad. I know this is not unusual but why not admit it and be real about it. Maybe im all wrong. im being very calm on the outside but i am hurting so much. im sick and i reaf the future will be way worse. noone else involved yet. that will really mess me up.