I'll start from the beginning. I met my husband at 16, had a kid and got married at 19. He has never treated me good but I was infatuated with him when we were younger. When I say he hasn't treated me good, I mean he degrades me and has been physically violent before, not to mention he drinks heavily. I have stayed time and time again because of my children and not wanting to have them grow up in a broken home. I have been unhappy for a long time, it's almost like I die a little inside every time he calls me a name or is awful to me. I was always very independent before I met him. I feel like he has held me back in many aspects of my life. I feel trapped because I don't make a ton of money to survive after a divorce, plus I really do feel like he'd go crazy and possibly hurt me. Anyway, I recently went to a conference for work out of town. I had no intentions on meeting anyone because I'm married. I ended up in great company and had good meaningful conversation with a man that was genuinely interested in me as a person. He wanted to get to know me. He didn't try to get in my pants, he just liked hanging out with me. He respected my situation. Nothing physical ever happened. We went to lunch before I left and he got my number. I had the most amazing time with him. He made me feel like I was good enough again. We've been texting back and forth having great conversation about ourselves and life. But, he kind of made the decision we should stop before it goes too far because he doesn't want to be the reason a family breaks up, which makes him an even greater guy. It sucks because I can't quit thinking about him. I feel like I'm going to miss out on an amazing guy because I'm stuck in a miserable marriage. I also feel guilty because I have strong feelings for this guy that isn't my husband, and actually feelings I've never had for my husband. I have thought about divorce MANY times but have never gotten up the guts to do it, partially because I'm afraid of my husband. I'm driving myself crazy not knowing what to do. This guy I just met managed to make me feel good about myself again and gave me more confidence in myself. He's made me feel like I can do better and be better. I need help and I need to make a decision for once. I don't know if my personal happiness is worth breaking up my family. My kids mean everything to me. HELP!