I’ll start at the beginning. My first marriage lasted 10 years and ended due to my ex’s legal troubles, infidelity, and addiction. I got married young, so I guess this was to be expected. Soon after I found the most wonderful man. I remember feeling my heart melt as he would talk about us. How naive I was. I’m mortified that I’m looking toward divorce #2 after only 2 years of marriage. But I’m at a loss and at times scared for my life..
The other day he insisted I was cheating on him, even though I have never nor have I given any indications of infidelity. He insisted I open my phone. I have nothing to hide, but I expect my privacy to be respected and to have trust so I said no. He threw my phone against the wall shattering it beyond repair and then came over and strangled me. The abuse seems to be growing. This is not the first time (or the worst) he has hurt me or destroyed my property. We moved to a new state a year ago and I have absolutely no one. I feel like an animal lured into a trap and now I don’t know how to get out. Every time he walks by me, I look at the window to see what his reflection is doing just in case. I’m so tired of being scared, being put down, and feeling alone, but I don’t know how to leave and do it safely.
I hate to be sound dramatic, and I’m sorry for that. I just needed some anonymity to get this off my chest and hopefully hear some great advice.
The other day he insisted I was cheating on him, even though I have never nor have I given any indications of infidelity. He insisted I open my phone. I have nothing to hide, but I expect my privacy to be respected and to have trust so I said no. He threw my phone against the wall shattering it beyond repair and then came over and strangled me. The abuse seems to be growing. This is not the first time (or the worst) he has hurt me or destroyed my property. We moved to a new state a year ago and I have absolutely no one. I feel like an animal lured into a trap and now I don’t know how to get out. Every time he walks by me, I look at the window to see what his reflection is doing just in case. I’m so tired of being scared, being put down, and feeling alone, but I don’t know how to leave and do it safely.
I hate to be sound dramatic, and I’m sorry for that. I just needed some anonymity to get this off my chest and hopefully hear some great advice.