I am 43 and married for 15 years to a great man. The first 14 years our sex life was great. My husband was giving it to me 2 or 3 times a week. I love sex. I want it more, but I control myself for him. Before we got married we would have sex at least 4 times a week and I would masturbate 2 or 3 times a day 4 or 5 times a week. When we got married I promised him that I would only masturbate when we are together. I realize that my libido has intimidated him, but I never wanted him to feel that I didn't want him. For the past year my husband has been taking a medicine that has lowered his interest in sex. It has been 2 weeks since we last made love. For the past week I have been trying to get him interested, but no luck. Each time he turns me down I get horny and have to masturbate. I am getting a lot of pleasure from clitoral and g spot stimulation. The ability to feel and cause that wet sweet rush of desire to flood through my body is making me crazy. I have gotten so needy that I am masturbating 3 or 4 times a day. Every time I masturbate I am thinking of him and I can make myself come, but it’s not the same. Now it seems I can't stop. The masturbation makes me want him more and his rejection makes me want to masturbate more. I am thinking about it so much right now, that I think I'm an addict. I know that I could control myself if he would quit holding out. Please help me save my marriage & sanity.