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Being with someone is so hard. Why did I not experience his with my marriage of 23 years? I guess it is because I was so busy bringing up three kids by myself (husband traveled a lot) that I did not even think about sex, affection, all the work involved to keep a marriage going. That is one reason he left I suppose.
Not that I am older and with someone, no kids to bring up, no kids in the house, no one but us two, things are clearer. The differences between him and I are so staggering and I get so unhappy sometimes. I just do not remember going through all this with my marriage.
Our senses of humor are completely different. I don't think he is funny and he doesn't think I am funny.
Our philosophy of life are different. He thinks money or how much one makes and what material things one has shows what a success a person is in life. I feel that is wrong. I feel as long as a person is good and enjoys life and doesn't hurt one another, they can be a ditch digger and live in a small apt. with nothing, they can still be considered a success.
He can go for days without touching me (o but needs sex just about every night which I give him) and it's ok.
SIGH I just feel like in the 4 yrs. we have been together my nerves have been through WW1 and WW2 combined. I am just so tired of it all. I love him but sometimes love just isn't enough. I was happier single, there I said it. I hate to say it but I was, more content.
Stupidly I have nowhere to go. I moved in with him, don't have my own car, don't have a job. GOD why did I allow myself to get into this situation? Yes it is my fault, I blame no one.
Not that I am older and with someone, no kids to bring up, no kids in the house, no one but us two, things are clearer. The differences between him and I are so staggering and I get so unhappy sometimes. I just do not remember going through all this with my marriage.
Our senses of humor are completely different. I don't think he is funny and he doesn't think I am funny.
Our philosophy of life are different. He thinks money or how much one makes and what material things one has shows what a success a person is in life. I feel that is wrong. I feel as long as a person is good and enjoys life and doesn't hurt one another, they can be a ditch digger and live in a small apt. with nothing, they can still be considered a success.
He can go for days without touching me (o but needs sex just about every night which I give him) and it's ok.
SIGH I just feel like in the 4 yrs. we have been together my nerves have been through WW1 and WW2 combined. I am just so tired of it all. I love him but sometimes love just isn't enough. I was happier single, there I said it. I hate to say it but I was, more content.
Stupidly I have nowhere to go. I moved in with him, don't have my own car, don't have a job. GOD why did I allow myself to get into this situation? Yes it is my fault, I blame no one.