We reconciled back in 2012, I thought we were doing pretty good for awhile. Past hurts keep surfacing more and more frequently and I just can't stand to be around him anymore because he's so nasty to me. We tried marriage counseling, he stormed out of two separate sessions and never came back. I kept going. He'll tell you that he can't get over my infidelity, but we were separated for 11 months before I finally gave up and thought that he would never come back for me. However, I declined sex one night so he opened up a Tinder account right next to me and told me if he didn’t get it at home, he’d get it somewhere else. That’s when we began marriage counseling. We have beautiful twin girls this time around. We came to the conclusion that we are making each other miserable and best course of action is divorce. I’m scared though because one of the things that I can’t handle anymore is how quickly he escalates from ok to nuclear level angry. Also that he throws out threats like divorce frequently and may not be taking this as seriously as I am. I’m sick to my stomach thinking about what’s about to happen since we’ve been down this road before and I know he can play really nasty.