My name is Aerial. I am 23 years old. I have been with my fiance for almost 5 years now. We have an 11 month old son together. I went through some post pardon depression. Not the kind that makes you hate your child, the kind that makes you cry over commercials & get easily over emotional & stressed out. I started to struggle deeply with my depression & didn't feel like my S.O. understood at all so unfortunately, I started to resent him a bit. I would be much easier to upset or anger. That part is my fault & I understand that 100%. However, he admitted to me a few nights ago, he started purposefully treating me like **** back. Neither of us did the right thing but here we are, things have spiraled out of control to where we were basically only talking if the other was having an attitude or arguing with each other. We finally had a night where we actually spoke to each other instead of yelling & blaming & I told him how sorry I was but in order to come back from it, we both have to treat each other with love & compassion & not jump down each other's throats if one gets an attitude. To stop & talk about it before it gets out of hand. However, he is also 110% convinced that I have cheated on him with someone else. I haven't. He even said he's so sure that he has already forgiven me & that he knows in his heart of hearts that I have. He will not let me begin to make things up to him for the way I started treating him until I 'admit' to cheating. I feel so lost now. No matter what I try to tell him or how we try to mend things, he says we can't move forward until I start being honest with him. I am, though! At this point, I feel like my only hope of staying with him is to make up a time I cheated on him so he'll finally get the answer he's been looking for. Please, if anyone has been through this before & truly hadn't cheated on their SO, please give me some advice because I'm so scared & hurt & I want so badly to work through this with him, I love him with all my heart! Please someone help! Thank you for taking your time out to listen to me!