It's been almost a year since my husband had an online affair and we went through all the usual stages and have been working through it together on building a better marriage and connection and things have been great. For some reason I've suddenly become suspicious and out of the blue feel like as paranoid and crazy as I did post affair. I think the distrust comes from him playing poker online. He loves it and hates it when I get worried about it as there are female poker buddies who he chats to. He says it's just poker and I'm being silly. Because this is one area I can't snoop into to check on him I guess I feel I have no way of easing my mind. I think trust is an issue with me still maybe as he showed no signs of being unhappy last year and the affair was so out of character and a shock and he was good at keeping it from me while still pretending to be happy and in love, so I think maybe because I have no signs to go off except his word I am scared. One of the women did however ask him to have a one on one game with him which I have never seen before. How could I handle this as he did admit last year to being addicted to online dating sites where beautiful sexy women made him feel good. He said he would never hurt me again by doing that and he was just felt a bit lost, stressed and lonely and said it was a silly thing to do. The painul flashes in my head of the romantic and sexual letters he sent still make me intensely sad and I think even now that a female poker buddy would only have to say she liked him for him to stray again. Am I worrying about nothing because of the past?