This has me in tears because this is how I feel and can’t put I to words. 100% how I feel!
Thank God my adult daughter doesn’t live with us.
The apartment is mine and I’m on the lease for 8 more months. He isn’t on the lease so he has to go. I think this is where I also feel stuck. Because how do I get him out?
I moved here to get away and he followed me and I was dumb and said ok we’ll see if the change of scenery helps. Dumb I know.
It’s easier for me to say don’t come back and change the locks when he’s done something wrong. But it’s not when he’s being ok so I don’t know how to handle.
I’m so sad and upset with myself because I know all of this. I watch many YouTube videos and read about all of this. So from a therapy perspective I know all of it. I just can’t move.
I’m paralyzed. I pray to God every night to please grant me a miracle, to build me up where I’ve been torn down and to remove him from my life. To do for me what I can’t do for myself. I feel like I’m there where he’s saying to get him out but I need strength and courage to finally do it.
The last bad relationship I was in many many years ago, truly the only reason I was able to get away from him was because he went to jail. Otherwise, who knows when I would have gotten him out of my life.
So yes, I need a miracle. I need strength. I need courage.
I’m still praying and I still need encouragement from you all.
You will get put when the pain of staying exceeds the pain of leaving. Only you can do this. People can encourage etc etc but if you are not listening and are intent on reliving your misery over and over then what do you expect people on here to do or say?
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