I met my husband 5 years ago......granted we were young I was 21 and he was 22. Call it infatuation, love at first sight...etc we just clicked. Our relationship was one of the ones that people compare their "bad" relationship to. People would always tell us what we have is what they someday hope to find.....blah blah blah. As most of us know...love is blind or maybe noone really wants to see what is truly there. I started noticeing the lies almost two and 1/2 years ago....before then I'm sure they were there and I just glazed all the imperfections over.It started with rent. I always made our budget, so that everything could get paid on time with a little extra to do family things with(we have 3 kids)Everytime rent was due, I would give him the money to pay. This was out first apartment together, after we got married.3 months into our lease I get handed an eviction notice telling me I never paid my rent?Where did the money go?He said there was a mistake he paid...but he didn't. and we moved.We've now moved into a house and have lived here for 2 1/2 years no prob with the rent. But along the way other things have arose. For example...he can't tell the truth or admit to anything.Confronting him even when you have undeniable truth is like trying to nail a jelly fish to a wall.He got busted with a bag of weed in our car, wasn't his...doesnt smoke pot?Really how did it get there....it was his friends...its like I'm his mom.Honey, can you check how much money we have in our account ......sure.....I check back with the bank...numbers WAY off. Then theres the smoking game... I call it how many ways can one person lie to your face before they realize you dont believe them anymore game. Babe did you smoke, you smell like smoke..No I didnt smoke....I can smell it on your breathe... nope not smoking I swear.. your being paranoid....this went on for a year. Before he confessed that he was smoking. Now mind,I dont care if he wanted to smoke thats fine, smoke your ciggs and do it outside...but why sneak and lie about it. Same thing with beer, there is nothing wrong with having a beer, if your grown you can have a drink....but he would lie about that too! and ontop of it he would deny ever drinking but I would find beer can hidden all over the place even stuffed up ontop of the cabinet in the bathroom...its boarderline hilarious...Then one day I go to the trunk of the car and I find a whole bag of beer cans and forty bottles...nice not drinking at all huh. Its just crazy he lies and sneaks about everything....then theres the porn thing that has arose and this time It actually hurts me. My hubby has always been kind of reserved, even with me he hates when I hug or kiss on him....or he says stuff like I'm tired or I just need some space......but then I find all kinds of porn, live sex show feeds everything....on my computers history....I even found a comment on a page he left to someone saying that he's lied to me about so many things like smoking and hes even lusted after other women...I asked him about it and guess what more lies...I meant before you.....really? Now its to the point where I dont trust or believe anything he says.If he says the sky is blue im checking.And its not fair. I feel like Im having a relationship with just myself and the vows we made were so important to me....but must have been nothing to him...We used to be so close but now I wounder if all that was just lies too...if any of it was genuine. Now I question everything like I dont know if hes ever cheated on me?because if he lies about things that are so simple, what wouldn't he lie about.I feel broken and crazy....Like why doesnt he worry that by doing these things he could lose me? I dont know what to do anymore, a part of me wants to divorce but another wants to stay...and I dont know what to do.