Hello all.
I'm new to this site and your posts have been very helpful today. I thought I'd share my story if only to get the feelings out. My heart aches.
On Sep 29, my wife and I had scheduled Date night. It was going to be fun except I was "grumpy". I knew that if we made it out everything would be fine. The night ended before it started when after dropping of our son, she asked me to take her back to her moms (who was watching our son).
Over the next couple days I left her alone so I wouldn't upset her. I get a text Oct 2 stating she talked to a lawyer.
She has been dealing with A LOT recently. Unfulfilled at her job, angry at home, and her Grandmother was dying. My wife is a runner. She has abandonment issues and I've had to chase her in the past. I'm not perfect, I have done many things to cause her to leave.
She came home on Oct 4. She was upset and drunk and crying. Her grandmother passed away and she just wanted me to hold her. She was crying saying she was sorry, she doesn't want this. She wants to come home. She was crying that she already paid the lawyer and she can't take it back. The next day, she left for work and hasn't been home since.
She tells me she loves me. She will always love me, but she needs to do this. I need to make changes. Get my anger under control. I got in a road rage incident 3 months back and promised I would get help.
She's working herself up and walling off herself more. The last few days she's seen a positive change. And the fact that I'm doing crazy, off the wall, random acts of kindness for her. She told me thank you for being so nice even though it makes it harder for her.
It seems at times she wants this, but others she doesn't. In fact I know she wants to come home, but is afraid of falling into the same trap. She's afraid to hope even though our love is as strong as ever.
She stopped by this past sunday to pick up some clothes and told me that she has to keep moving or she gets so sad. She then curled up on the couch for a couple minutes and started crying. She said she misses our home, our family, Me and Bray (her stepson). She even said, it's just soo hard when you're the tombaby i love.
She has filed for Divorce and got a new apartment. She is on the verge of accepting a different job, and I'm afraid I've lost her forever.
I'm new to this site and your posts have been very helpful today. I thought I'd share my story if only to get the feelings out. My heart aches.
On Sep 29, my wife and I had scheduled Date night. It was going to be fun except I was "grumpy". I knew that if we made it out everything would be fine. The night ended before it started when after dropping of our son, she asked me to take her back to her moms (who was watching our son).
Over the next couple days I left her alone so I wouldn't upset her. I get a text Oct 2 stating she talked to a lawyer.
She has been dealing with A LOT recently. Unfulfilled at her job, angry at home, and her Grandmother was dying. My wife is a runner. She has abandonment issues and I've had to chase her in the past. I'm not perfect, I have done many things to cause her to leave.
She came home on Oct 4. She was upset and drunk and crying. Her grandmother passed away and she just wanted me to hold her. She was crying saying she was sorry, she doesn't want this. She wants to come home. She was crying that she already paid the lawyer and she can't take it back. The next day, she left for work and hasn't been home since.
She tells me she loves me. She will always love me, but she needs to do this. I need to make changes. Get my anger under control. I got in a road rage incident 3 months back and promised I would get help.
She's working herself up and walling off herself more. The last few days she's seen a positive change. And the fact that I'm doing crazy, off the wall, random acts of kindness for her. She told me thank you for being so nice even though it makes it harder for her.
It seems at times she wants this, but others she doesn't. In fact I know she wants to come home, but is afraid of falling into the same trap. She's afraid to hope even though our love is as strong as ever.
She stopped by this past sunday to pick up some clothes and told me that she has to keep moving or she gets so sad. She then curled up on the couch for a couple minutes and started crying. She said she misses our home, our family, Me and Bray (her stepson). She even said, it's just soo hard when you're the tombaby i love.
She has filed for Divorce and got a new apartment. She is on the verge of accepting a different job, and I'm afraid I've lost her forever.
