Husband is meeting with his lawyer today to pay for an start the paperwork. I thought I was holding up ok, but I am have major mood swings. Anger, sadness, regret. How can someone who has been such a uncaring jerk make me feel this way? it's like him having this meeting is making it real for me. I have been holding out hope for a reconciliation. Been also trying the 180. which seems to have helped calm me. I just don't understand. Says he still loves me, just doesn't want to be my husband anymore.