Married 32 years. Great kids, good family, good job. Kids left and realized not best friends with wife. Fell into affair with an amazing girl. Best friend ever had. Two years into this affair and can't find way out. Fear wife will be devastated and suicidal and too many people get hurt. Life is now a mess. Girlfriend has been patient and loyal but needs more. Completely in love with her but can't get through my marriage without devastation. Know it's wrong to stay in marriage while in love with another. Can't find me way. Has anyone ever screwed up this badly?