I have been with my husband for over 14 years married 11, we have 2 beautiful kids together. Our marriage has never been perfect, but about 3 years ago I learned he had a drug problem and did everything I could to get him away from that lifestyle, by packing up and moving several times. Everytime he would find a way to lose touch with reality. Recently last year to be exact we were asleep and awakened by police at our door and being charged with trafficking drugs. I have never been so devestated as I am and always will be drug free, all I did was work and provide for my family, while I was working my husband was doing this in our home in front of our son! I was arrested and got out on an unsecured bond after 2 days while incarcerated my daughter broke her leg and was admitted into the hospital. So now I was left by myself with a hanicapp child in a wheel chair and a toddler to care for. I was devestated and quickly went into a major depression. During this time I met a man who I call my angel who picked me up when I had fallen, who I fell completely madly in love with, who never hurt me but helped me to stay strong and stable for my kids. The problem is my husband is out now and saying he has changed, and now realizes what he has lost, I hear what he is saying but am hurt so much from the past that I feel I cant get over it. I love him but am not in love with him I am in love with my angel!! I don't know what to do?When I take the kids to visit him, I dont feel the same as I once did, I cant kiss him and hug him without thinking of the other. I feel I need to let my husband go and be happy for once but I also feel it will crush him completely and I don't have the strength or the heart to do that. My angel is waiting in the corner for me to make a decision as is my husband. I want to do the right thing but I dont know what that right thing is? Please help me!!