I have always tried to do the best for Lidia and my family everyday I do more and more for Lidia I love her, I care for her,I cherish her. I have always been there for her regardless of the situation going on and she is my best friend! always has been! However I am never seen I am never heard,i have always strived for the best for Lidia and my family,i have always tried to make us rise above the 9-5 normal life to stand out and be proud of our achievements and to make people proud of us for daring to go beyond the normal. for the past six months I have tried so hard to put our marriage back together we started counciling and when we started this process we were interviewed separately to find out what was going on it was established that we could only be counciled if there was not a third party involved and Lidia was asked to postpone her relationship with Dan I was horrified that an emotional relationship had been going on for quite some Time prior to our counciling session even though I was trying to repair and put back together our marriage but at the same time relieved that the councillor had noticed this and said it was a big threat to our marriage, Lidia agreed to suspend her relationship totally and had informed Dan that this was going to happen I was very relieved by this statement and felt we had a real platform to start rebuilding our marriage and Lidia had said she wanted a better marriage and i so want to give her this! the marriage that she deserves i believe in marriage and I truly love Lidia, Lidia managed to hold of contact for ten days and then had a brief conversation in the corridor at work this scared me and I felt very hurt and disappointed then every week some form of contact was made this put me into a down wood spiral of despair anger frustration and confusion by Lidias weakness which caused total unrest in our house and made the platform so needed to repair our marriage impossible, this robbed me of my chance to do counciling to repair our marriage then Lidia announced she can't take anymore and announced she wants separation we have been going round and round in circles since this statement, I am concussed and horrified by this situation hurt ,scared disappointed and lost without Lidia she now communicates more with Dan than me and he has become the source of my blame for not creating the calm so needed to put this back together I have been asking her to give me a proper chance a real chance to try and repair our marriage for my sake, her sake and our children's sakes, our children need to have a loving stable home where they feel loved when they need it by both parents and to see love. Amelia is asking me why does mummy not kiss daddy they need to see a loving happy relationship to have morals and happiness in there lives, all I am asking you is do you think Lidia should give me a real chance a calm platform to try and rebuild our marriage where we take it slow but do it right we learn to communicate better we learn about each other and we try and rebuild this? Do you think Lidia is making a mistake by not taking this chance? I truly love Lidia I care for her and our family I only ever wanted the best for us and I know if we use the last six weeks left of counciling we could make it!