Yes ,very much and in a very determined manner.Sent a brief two line email to my H last night. Said good luck in his new relationship and that I will make it with or without him.
When I sent that, I felt like I had released not only him but also a little of the pain.
This morning feels different, like a new start. All this time I've been chasing, begging, trying to engage him in conversation, texting, calling, fixing. I am so done! Everyone says focus on you but that's been impossible but this morning it feels easy and natural. Maybe its just the roller coaster but for now it's wonderful to be able to rise above it.
Has anyone else let go of their WS and were you able to sustain it?
I did a lot of pleading,begging,crying,rugsweeping and was a doormat for 2 months.
In the end,I do not know how that happened,I made alist of things I did wrong,said was genuinely sorry for all of them,he was not ready to hear his faults(He thinks he is GOD like and had given me chnaces);He called just 2 days later asking for the divorce finalization.I was calm,said Yes and asked him not to contact me except for email regarding the divorce;That B****** did call me 1 week later(perhaps to feel good about making me feel pathetic);I did not pick his phone.Chnaged the number forever;
2 weeks after from then ,I had bouts of anger,guilt and depression;But I felt good day after day.It has been months now and I happier and getting healthier.I feel angry and used sometimes,that is just my anger over 11 years of my life gone like this.But I do not want him back or see him again.
I have read books by Louis Hay and made positive affirmations wishing myself happy days and happy life and have been kind to myself;
Am working on building my confidence level again;I just want to see myself happy ;
So you have 1 person in the world who is presently out of the mess and trying to rebuild a healthy happy life.