I need help. My husband cheated on me almost 4 years ago and I forgave him. No matter how hard I try to let it go I can't. I am so jealous of little things, it's eating me alive. I freak out about a girl I see him talking to and then always find out it's nothing. I check his phone , email , go through his wallet etc. It's really bad and I feel like I can't control it. I will probably end up ruining the marriage I wanted so badly to save. I am trying my best to deal with the depression and jealousy but nothing is working. It does not help that he is horrible at communication and when I try to tell him exactly how I feel he just says " I thought this was over " and " what do you want me to say " *Sigh* I am totally lost on this. Now there is a new 20 year old co worker in the situation and I want to not worry but I constantly find myself mad or sad for no reason and wanting to call him all the time.. Please someone help me!