My husband and I have know each other for a little over 20 years. We were each others first kiss and first boyfriend/girlfriend when we were 12. Everyone gets gooey over our story. We met back up 10 years later and were inseparable. We dated for two years and got married on 12/12/12. its been a rocky road for us. I'm very sensitive and big hearted and he is loving and big hearted but, hes also an alcoholic, has been for 14 years. We recently moved to eastern Texas for more opportunities and to start a family. Things fell through as soon as we got here. Our house got soldfrom underneath us and his hiring manager got fired. So we have no house and he has no career. We have been forced to stay with his mother and her boyfriend...AWKWARD! I got a job at a home decor place and he got a serving job. It has been so stressful being here and I'm trying so hard to stay happy. I moved from every one and everything I've ever known to help us be stronger because he said it would help. His drinking has slowed but hes been so irritable with me and very distant. I found out I have cervical cancer in January and that has been hard on us in the adult time aspect as well. I feel so alone here and so depressed. I want my friends and my mom badly but I can't go home and don't want to leave him. but he's making me feel like I'm nothing to him. Whenever I point it out he sighs and rolls his eyes and says "okay what do you want to talk about?" All I want to do is be near him, talk to him, have him be there with me and not on his phone. He says we weren't in the honeymoon phase that's gone. It's just real life now. Am I doing something wrong? Am I too clingy? I only want the best for our future family.