I've been married to a wonderful, loving, and caring woman for almost 9 years now. We have two beautiful little boys (6 and 4). Over the past five years I've been working in the Middle East. It started out like most couples just trying to get ahead and back out of debt after the housing crash. Somewhere along the way I began getting used to the 300k + salary, and started putting my wants and desires for toys ahead of my family. I sent plenty of money home, and made plenty of great improvements to our home. I went home on vacation every three months, but raising two little boys on your own has got to be difficult for anybody. I'm pretty sure along the way my wife tried to tell me how she felt about me being gone, but I turned it into her attacking me for trying to provide the best life I could for our family. Two weeks ago she told me she wants a divorce. She said that she has so much built up anger towards me that she doesn't think she'll ever get past it. I would consider myself a good, caring, and kind husband and father, but I've certainly made my fair share of mistakes, and I certainly have changes I need to make. I'm old school. My wife is the love of my life, my sole mate. I would do anything to save this. I've offered to go to and even found marriage counselors, but she said she's not interested. Now, I'm sitting in an airport writing this because I feel more lost than I've ever felt before. I'm so nervous about seeing her in 9 hours that I feel like I'm going to lose it emotionally. What should I do? Is there anything I can do?