When we are apart. But after 5 minutes around her I want to choke her! I need to get past missing her because its a fairy tale that I miss , not how things actually were. Ugh!
I was exactly the same - came out of mediation [monday] feeling better tho, but then the rest of the week has been very hard. I ended up falling out with her wed, telling how i blamed her etc then yesterday trying to be friends again ???Not divorced. Mediation on Monday. Maybe that is why my emotions are like they are. Nervous about mediation and it's one step closer to being final, which I am resisting for some reason.
Yeah. I definitely remember how I wish she would be. I have a hard time with change normally so that is probably why I hung around in a loveless marriage.Do not choose someone that does not choose you.
Mourn the memory of your marriage. All the good things are still good.
Acknowledge that is no longer the way things are. Deal with your partner as they are ... now, not as how you wish them to be or as you remember them.
What you are feeling is absolutely normal. But ... don't let it own you. Don't ruminate in it.