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I bumped into an old friend with whom I had a brief relationship almost 20 years ago. We were good friends before this happened again.
We are both married. My spouse and I have been together 15 years and have 3 kids. My spouse smokes cigarettes, has issues with drugs and alcohol and parties every weekend. This leaves me to raise the kids. I dont smoke and rarely drink. The taste of cigarettes turns me off. Because of this, we dont kiss and rarely hug. We have sex regularly. At times I have felt invisible, neglected, taken for granted and lonely. He has cheated on me with an ex girlfriend before and since we've been married. They are emotional affairs. 5 years ago I let him know that it had to stop. I believe that it did but I'm sure he's emotionally involved with someone else because that's his personality.
My spouse is a good person and loves me dearly. We have fallen into the routine of marriage and have little to no time alone without one or more of our children.
The side relationship began as harmless texting and escalated from there. Our conversations made me feel alive and sexier than ive felt in a long time. I talked to him all day and all night everyday for 4 months.
I slept with the other person once and felt horrible immediately afterwards. I feel like the most horrible person on earth. Since then I've cut off all communication with this person and explained why. He isn't looking to break up his family and neither am I. The sick part about this is I miss his friendship. It was ruined once this happened.
My spouse has no idea about what I've done. He suspects there may have been something, but I was extremely careful and discreet.
Im aware that men and women feel differently about cheating. Women eventually forgive but men do not. His territory has been violated by another male. I don't think that I could ever tell him about what I've done because he would never forgive me. That chapter is over and will never ever be visted again. I think that it would be cruel to say anything at all.
We are both married. My spouse and I have been together 15 years and have 3 kids. My spouse smokes cigarettes, has issues with drugs and alcohol and parties every weekend. This leaves me to raise the kids. I dont smoke and rarely drink. The taste of cigarettes turns me off. Because of this, we dont kiss and rarely hug. We have sex regularly. At times I have felt invisible, neglected, taken for granted and lonely. He has cheated on me with an ex girlfriend before and since we've been married. They are emotional affairs. 5 years ago I let him know that it had to stop. I believe that it did but I'm sure he's emotionally involved with someone else because that's his personality.
My spouse is a good person and loves me dearly. We have fallen into the routine of marriage and have little to no time alone without one or more of our children.
The side relationship began as harmless texting and escalated from there. Our conversations made me feel alive and sexier than ive felt in a long time. I talked to him all day and all night everyday for 4 months.
I slept with the other person once and felt horrible immediately afterwards. I feel like the most horrible person on earth. Since then I've cut off all communication with this person and explained why. He isn't looking to break up his family and neither am I. The sick part about this is I miss his friendship. It was ruined once this happened.
My spouse has no idea about what I've done. He suspects there may have been something, but I was extremely careful and discreet.
Im aware that men and women feel differently about cheating. Women eventually forgive but men do not. His territory has been violated by another male. I don't think that I could ever tell him about what I've done because he would never forgive me. That chapter is over and will never ever be visted again. I think that it would be cruel to say anything at all.