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I have never been one to believe that weed was addictive. I have always thought that the feeling it gave you was addictive but not that it was chemically addictive.
I am not sure how to feel anymore on the subject.
Let me try to make this as short as I can..
My H and I have been married for almost 2 years. Together for almost 5. He has been a pot smoker since he was 13. I have never really had a problem with this until it started taking over everything.
We are so amazingly happy when he is high. (he doesn't even seem high when he is anymore..just happy) When he is not high, I am afraid of him. When he is sober, he talks about wanting to be dead..throws things...yells..breaks things..accuses me of doing anything and everything.
I do not pick fights. I just sit and let him yell, sometimes I may say things back but only defending myself.
An example being, he was out of weed the other day.. I didn't know and I just woke up and went over to give him a good morning hug. He immediatly started on me and I knew.
As the day went on, it progressed. More yelling, punched two fresh holes in the wall..called me things like "idiot", "retard".
I just decided I would go upstairs and take a nap since I currectly have the flu. He followed me upstairs yelling and asked me, "Have you seen any old roaches in the ash trays?". When I said No, he yelled and punched a glass picture hanging on the wall, it smashed all over the floor. Then he went to wrap his hand and get the vaccuum.. I sat on the bed shocked as he came back up. All I said was, "I didn't do anything to deserve this.." and he yelled and told me to shut up and that I am lucky I am a female. So I started crying which made him madder.
I took off my glasses and he said "Fine get comfortable, Im not cleaning up this glass..step on it, *****" and slammed the door. He returned 3 minutes later to clean it..not saying a word to me.
An hour later he was able to get weed and was sweet as pie to me. He's been taking care of me ever since, cuddling and saying he loves me.
I am so afraid and confused. I am afraid he is going to hurt me one day. I need help.
I am not sure how to feel anymore on the subject.
Let me try to make this as short as I can..
My H and I have been married for almost 2 years. Together for almost 5. He has been a pot smoker since he was 13. I have never really had a problem with this until it started taking over everything.
We are so amazingly happy when he is high. (he doesn't even seem high when he is anymore..just happy) When he is not high, I am afraid of him. When he is sober, he talks about wanting to be dead..throws things...yells..breaks things..accuses me of doing anything and everything.
I do not pick fights. I just sit and let him yell, sometimes I may say things back but only defending myself.
An example being, he was out of weed the other day.. I didn't know and I just woke up and went over to give him a good morning hug. He immediatly started on me and I knew.
As the day went on, it progressed. More yelling, punched two fresh holes in the wall..called me things like "idiot", "retard".
I just decided I would go upstairs and take a nap since I currectly have the flu. He followed me upstairs yelling and asked me, "Have you seen any old roaches in the ash trays?". When I said No, he yelled and punched a glass picture hanging on the wall, it smashed all over the floor. Then he went to wrap his hand and get the vaccuum.. I sat on the bed shocked as he came back up. All I said was, "I didn't do anything to deserve this.." and he yelled and told me to shut up and that I am lucky I am a female. So I started crying which made him madder.
I took off my glasses and he said "Fine get comfortable, Im not cleaning up this glass..step on it, *****" and slammed the door. He returned 3 minutes later to clean it..not saying a word to me.
An hour later he was able to get weed and was sweet as pie to me. He's been taking care of me ever since, cuddling and saying he loves me.
I am so afraid and confused. I am afraid he is going to hurt me one day. I need help.