My wife and I have been married for a short time, and up until a few weeks ago things were amazing. She loved me more than I could hope for, and things were amazing.
We decided that we would take steps to start preparing for a baby. My wife was taking an SSRI, but consulted with her physician, and decided to ween herself off the medication. The weening time was only about 2 months, but one day she realized that she did not take her medication, and decided not finish out her prescription.
A few weeks after stopping with the medication, she began to withdraw from me. She is very sad, will not touch me (hug, kiss, hold my hand, anything), and says all she wants to do is run away and not be stuck in our marriage.
She fully recognizes that she's dealing with something serious, and has done a lot of research herself for certain solutions that she can do herself. However, she refuses to seek counselling, and does not want to entertain the thought of going back on medication because she doesn't feel like herself.
I've done so much reading on the topic of depression, but my wife does not like me suggesting things to her, something I simply don't do anymore, as it upsets her a lot.
I feel completely unloved right now, which is crazy since our marriage is so young. I'm so scared that the woman that loved me so much just weeks ago, will not return. I get so sad at night because I'll I want is to embrace my wife, but she wants nothing to do with any physical contact.
I'm so lost and sad right now. I'm so scared that she's not going to come back to me. I saw this forum and thought people might have advice that would give me hope that this is something we can work through, and that she can get those feelings for me again.
What can I do to help her?