So I have been married for 11 years. I screwed up twice in the past with the same woman, never had sex with her just emotional cheating. I told my wife I didn’t want her in the process of this and it hurt her so bad. I didn’t mean it but I was angry so anyway fast forward to now. We are still together. I had a seizure fractured my spine so I’ve been home a lot which helped us get closer again. But me I was to clingy she said so I have to fall back a little. So with my seizure medicine I have gotten all the side effects I’m angry all the time sleepy just all around a D*** but one day I got a phone call that my father lied on me to get money from someone and that sent me over the edge I blew up and my wife got all of it. I was yelling screaming cursing her out told her it’s over and everything and a few moments later I calmed down a bit and tried to take it all back but the damage was done. I have apologized over and over but she is so hurt. Honestly I don’t know if she will stay with me after this. I know it was me holding all my anger in and not talking to anyone but she is always the victim when I snap I hate it. I really need to talk with someone about my anger cause I don’t want to lose her. I can’t afford counseling and don’t have money for the classes so I’m frustrated. Can anyone give me some advice on how to get my wife to forgive me?