OK so here goes.... ive been with my partner just over 2 years now i love him with all my heart i really do.
No, you really don't. People who love someone with all their heart don't cheat on them multiple times, start to withdraw from them thus making them feel awful and then not even bother to tell them what's going on. after going out to a pub with my mates i ended up cheating with someone i have known for a long time but never thought of him as anything more than a family friend. it was so stupid and a bad decision partially due to to much alcohol (i am not using that as an excuse
-- whoa, you make and excuse ("partly due to to [sic] much alcohol") and then say it's not an excuse! you're pretty good at making excuses and avoiding responsibility for your actions (see below) -- i no what i did was wrong) but heres the thing i thought i could just try and forget about it and move on
-- you obviously weren't thinking about the feelings of the man you "love with all your heart," were you? what he doesn't know won't hurt him, right? -- but i did it again
-- surprise, surprise; now why did I see that coming? -- my head is all over the place
-- I'll bet! -- i actually have started to fall for the other guy
-- too bad for the other guy -- but i no even if i leave my partner we wont be together
-- so, the real reason for not leaving your partner isn't you amazing love for him, but that you won't be able to snag the guy you're shagging behind his back; nice! --. he has been messaging me wanting to meet up again i no its wrong but it gives me butterflys when i am around him
-- so, it's not your fault if you keep seeing him, it's the butterflies' fault. im puttin my partner through hell because ive changed towards him and he doesnt no why. its killing me
-- no, it's not killing you; it's bothering you a little bit but not enough to cause you break it off with the other guy and tell your partner what you've done -- that im hurting him because i do love him ALOT.
I think we've already demonstrated that that's not true! how can i put my stupid mistakes behind me and build a better future with my partner?
What you really mean is, won't someone tell me that I don't have to tell my partner what I've done as long as I don't get caught and it's also OK if I keep seeing the other guy because I'm really a nice person, because I love my partner "ALOT" and because I'm not responsible for my actions because I drinks too much sometimes and gets butterflies when I sees the guy I'm cheating with (and because I've got lots of other excuses, too).