I'm back to thinking about suicide again. I think about it constantly. My life is so far from where is supposed to be. And my husband goes through periods where he will ignore every call or msg or anything. He always does it, so I don't know why it bothers me anymore. Maybe its because I know hes with her when he does it. I hate my life. I hate everyone. I ran off all my friends. I didn't want people to see me hurt like this, and it hurt their lives, and I lash out at people. I can't eat, sleep, work. I have 3.8 GPA and now Im failing. I try to smile, and live but its impossible. My husband has an 18 yr old girlfriend and she met all his family and Im some cast off. And you know his sister was arrested for molesting our child and they all accept her and never said anything about it, but treated me horribly. I want to die. I'm so alone. I'm thinking about taking myself to hospital because I really might find some way to end my life. Anyway is better than this.