[CantePe]

If your flat is a part of their assisted living homes, yes they can take it from you for misconduct. Its part of their properties and assisted living housing. There are strict rules.

The road to hell is paved by "good intentions" so to speak.

 

[Aniseed Toffee]

I tried an autism dating site but there were bug issues and little females.

 

[lenzi]

Midgets need relationships too.

 

[Aniseed Toffee]

I meant the site was still relatively new with some flaws.

 

[lenzi]

Gotchya

 

[Aniseed Toffee]

Just to clear up some stuff - I did not assault Joanna or Sara. That day I broke the bottle, I hit another support worker who was with Sara in the street and she made Sara leave. I took that as interfering, plus my mindset at the time was pure anger.

I really doubt I could carry on my support with that company as they all got some nasty emails and while they never responded, they probably think I was abusive. The reason I never gave up my flat sooner is because I know it would be 100% goodbye and I cannot stand people I care about being extracted from my life. Plus, flats like that are not easy to get into. The attraction nowadays is those female support workers.

I just wanted my life back, with all the support workers I love and miss back in place. It is different if they one day leave and nobody could stop them deciding this, but I live in fear of that because I just wanted to make things right in case I never get the opportunity to show it was all a misunderstanding that could have been talked through. Maybe if I had never confessed to anyone I had feelings for Sara or Joanna, then they may not have known as I would have done my best to ensure my feelings would never shine through and I could have kept them bottled up, as it would have been a smart and professional thing to do instead of blurting out how I felt which was relationship suicide for us. I feel I have a big mouth and who is the one left being the fool when the smoke has cleared? Not those women, the other workers or the man who blabbed, but me!

 

[Flying_Dutchman]

I meant the site was still relatively new with some flaws.

A website with glitches and a small number of registered (female) users is unfortunate.

Vertically challenged women with cóckroaches are definitely a niche market.
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[Aniseed Toffee]

What does that mean?

 

[Flying_Dutchman]

I was translating your "website with bugs and little women."
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[Aniseed Toffee]

I have asked to meet with the company director. I spoke to him on the phone and explained what had been going on. I told him about my court hearing. Hopefully as well, I can get a happy solution to this crap. The way it should have been settled sooner.

You have to admit, it is sad. You just want your life back and nobody cares.

 

[lenzi]

Just to clear up some stuff - I did not assault Joanna or Sara. That day I broke the bottle, I hit another support worker who was with Sara in the street

You didn't assault Joanna or Sara, but you did assault another female support worker who was with Sara after smashing a bottle in uncontrollable rage. Just because you may not have had feelings for that support worker doesn't make it ok.

my mindset at the time was pure anger.

I think it's obvious that you have strong impulsive feelings of rage that cause you do do violent, unpredictable things like threatening suicide, stalking female support workers and hitting them.

I really doubt I could carry on my support with that company as they all got some nasty emails and while they never responded, they probably think I was abusive.

They'd be right.

Plus, flats like that are not easy to get into. The attraction nowadays is those female support workers.

You really need to get over those female support workers.

I just wanted to make things right in case I never get the opportunity to show it was all a misunderstanding that could have been talked through.

There was NO misunderstanding. It was CLEAR that you were developing inappropriate feelings of attraction for your female support workers and that can only be handled by pulling them off your case. The company cannot simply say "Aniseed you must curb your feelings for these women" because that just will not happen. You have no control over your feelings that's why you lash out in anger, that's why you contact the women on Facebook even with a restraining order against you, that's why you ended up arrested 3x and jailed 2x and that's why you hit a female coworker in the street after smashing a bottle in pure anger.

Maybe if I had never confessed to anyone I had feelings for Sara or Joanna, then they may not have known as I would have done my best to ensure my feelings would never shine through and I could have kept them bottled up, as it would have been a smart and professional thing to do instead of blurting out how I felt which was relationship suicide for us.

Confessing your feelings was not "relationship suicide". There never WAS a relationship, it's all in your head. Those Sarah and Joanne were never interested in a relationship with you, it was just a job for them.

It's a good thing you did confess before you got in any deeper otherwise who knows what would have happened when the company figured it out, which they would have eventually because you can't hide your feelings forever.

I feel I have a big mouth and who is the one left being the fool when the smoke has cleared? Not those women, the other workers or the man who blabbed, but me!

I'm thinking no one is looking at you like you're a fool, rather they're looking at you more like a clear and present danger.

 

[Aniseed Toffee]

You still fail to understand that I just miss Joanna and Sara so very much. And I only got Joanna's address because I wanted to send her a letter. But due to my mood, I went all:- 'Ha-ha, I have your address' on her (which was rather scary). If I had at the time sent more letters to moan about the fact she was no longer a part of my support team, so what? That does not constitute stalking, as such. It is not even illegal to look up anybody's address, but I do agree it can be frightening for a person, especially for a woman. Also, sending people unwanted letters or messaging them on Facebook or Twitter for to gain their attention is still harassment, I guess.

After I told Joanna I was going to shoot porn with a model named Jessie Fox, she said she would call the cops so I went into panic mode. And I can admit, I felt a bit demented that night if not frustrated at the time and I was at the end of my rope. I was very agitated. But she later told the cops that I sent her a letter stating I had intended to go "loitering" in her area which I know is BS. Both of them also sent emails to Cathy the boss saying:- 'When Peter held my hand on the bus, it made me uncomfortable' (insert more examples here) and I was like 'OK...WTF?' because I was only being nice. Yet no matter how many times I attempted to justify my intentions, everybody I spoke to about them did not care. Nobody cared!

In fact, just several days before I wound up being remanded in jail, Cathy said (translated from my perspective) 'I was not on the pathway to love - I was on the pathway to jail' when I went to her office to see her, but then it actually happened the following Tuesday. That will echo like a long hallway in my brain until the end of my life, so can you see now why I want redemption?

It's funny...

Everybody I consider to be important in my life ends up turning against me.

Mary from 2004...

'Can I help you?'

She said that on some forums. Within months, she was banning me and rejecting me on a whole multitude of message boards. This went on for quite a long time and it was stressful.

Laura, my ex-girlfriend from 2005...

'Do you have a girlfriend? Would you like one?'

Proceed quickly to all the pointless lying and milking me for my cash once I met up with her again during 2012. Yes!

Sara the support worker from AI is next...

'I was just going to say that!' she says, to my suggestion about her becoming my key worker in the summer of 2013...



I got that pleasant reaction one time right after I recommended she become my key worker. Now that appears to have been nothing more than a confidence trick.

I love these people. Yet now all three in the long run would rather I slipped on grease and went flying out a fifth floor window to my demise. Oh, I could post more examples of folk being nice then nasty, then becoming a tiny bit nice again, then later they will go back to nasty then get nastier. But why bother telling anyone this? Seriously!

 

[lenzi]

But due to my mood, I went all:- 'Ha-ha, I have your address' on her (which was rather scary).

It's more than scary you're basically threatening to go over to her house. You write "due to my mood" as if that excuses what comes afterwards. It doesn't excuse a thing. It points to how messed up you can be and what your potential for violence can be.

If I had at the time sent more letters to moan about the fact she was no longer a part of my support team, so what? That does not constitute stalking, as such.

It's harassment. Harassment can lead to stalking. Which it did, you were found very near the woman's house after threatening to kill yourself.

It is not even illegal to look up anybody's address, but I do agree it can be frightening for a person, especially for a woman. Also, sending people unwanted letters or messaging them on Facebook or Twitter for to gain their attention is still harassment, I guess.

You now realize you have scared and harassed these women.

You're making progress! Not much but some.

But she later told the cops that I sent her a letter stating I had intended to go "loitering" in her area which I know is BS.

You were arrested a few yards from her front door. Doesn't sound like BS to me.

Both of them also sent emails to Cathy the boss saying:- 'When Peter held my hand on the bus, it made me uncomfortable' (insert more examples here) and I was like 'OK...WTF?' because I was only being nice.

You weren't being "nice". You were attracted to her and you crossed the line. You're thinking of yourself. No one wanted to hold hands except for YOU. I can only imagine all the other "examples" of things you did that were out of line, that you think you did because you're "such a nice guy".

Yet no matter how many times I attempted to justify my intentions, everybody I spoke to about them did not care. Nobody cared!

There is no justification for your actions or your intentions. You are attracted to these women, you want a relationship with them, you have harassed and stalked them, and they want nothing to do with you. Nothing you can say or do will change that fact so get over it.

In fact, just several days before I wound up being remanded in jail, Cathy said (translated from my perspective) 'I was not on the pathway to love - I was on the pathway to jail' when I went to her office to see her, but then it actually happened the following Tuesday.

Peter she tried to warn you. You were on the wrong path and if you don't change your course, you're going to jail. You kept right at it, and guess what? You went to jail. The girl was trying to do you a favor by telling you what was in store for you and you disregarded that.

I'll say the same thing she did. If you don't let this go, if you continue to try to contact these women, you will go back to jail.

Everybody I consider to be important in my life ends up turning against me.

That's because you don't realize when you're overstepping your boundaries. You only care about what you want Peter. You want these girls, you will try to get with these girls. They don't want to be with you other than for job-related reasons, but you can't accept that. So you pay the price. You lose their support and you lost your job and you now have a prison record.

And you have no one to blame but the guy who looks back at you in the mirror who says "well I was in a bad mood so I couldn't help it".

Mary from 2004...

'Can I help you?'

She said that on some forums. Within months, she was banning me and rejecting me on a whole multitude of message boards.

Why do you think she banned you on a whole bunch of message boards when she doesn't ban all the other people on message boards? Don't you think you had something to do with that?

This went on for quite a long time and it was stressful.

Laura, my ex-girlfriend from 2005...

'Do you have a girlfriend? Would you like one?'

Proceed quickly to all the pointless lying and milking me for my cash once I met up with her again during 2012.

Well, she was just after your cash, that's obvious, even you know that. She was never interested in you as a person, she scammed you and she was gone. Learn from it. Don't be so gullible to the next chick who flashes you her boobs in exchange for a PlayStation. But you can't count her as "someone important who turned against you". She was just a scammer.

Sara the support worker from AI is next...'I was just going to say that!' she says, to my suggestion about her becoming my key worker in the summer of 2013...

She wanted to be your support worker and now she wants nothing to do with you. And you think none of that is your fault? Really?

I love these people. Yet now all three in the long run would rather I slipped on grease and went flying out a fifth floor window to my demise.

Well yeah, they'd rather you fall out a window then show up on their doorstep and assault them with a broken bottle. They probably lay awake at night wondering when and if you're going to show up unexpectedly. They've probably got the cops on speed dial. For good reason. "I know your address!" Really stupid move right there buddy. As I said, that's nothing less than a thinly veiled threat.

Oh, I could post more examples of folk being nice then nasty, then becoming a tiny bit nice again, then later they will go back to nasty then get nastier. But why bother telling anyone this? Seriously!

There is no point in complaining that nobody likes you, because you fail to understand that the common denominator in all these failed friendships is you.

 

[Aniseed Toffee]

I only had good intentions for wanting them back on my team. I remember all the good shifts we had. They uplifted some rule about owning pets, so in an ideal world, it would have been nice to go with Joanna to buy myself a cat, being that she herself has cats too. I also wanted to educate her on music from New Zealand which I had been doing sometimes on sleepovers, but two other residents started giggling and trying to be ignorant, and unlike myself, at least they could still get one on one time with Joanna.

Sara and I were going to go cycling. Robert could have still been coaching me at snooker. But that is not the case because he had to go grass on me and no-one likes being in the company of a grass.

I already tried to plead my case to some people on members.lovingyou.com, who were not awfully interested, the postings of which you can find by Google searching for 'strawberry milk' and that link above, plus add in autism.

I won't comment any further, but this is the last thing I am going to say: I never meant them any harm and I only wanted them to depart AI with nothing but good memories. I had a once in a lifetime chance to make good of myself with Sara in helm, yet I feel like I totally screwed things up and now everyone but "Aniseed Toffee" can appreciate her warm nature. But we can just call it a squandered opportunity, much like everything else that has gone wrong in my life, all because I tried to be the big hero.

 

[lenzi]

But we can just call it a squandered opportunity, much like everything else that has gone wrong in my life, all because I tried to be the big hero.

You are nobody's hero but your own.

 

[CantePe]

Autism is never an excuse for bad behavior or breaking the law. This comes from someone who is a mom of an Aspie kid and a full spectrum ASD kid. I've always told them "you are not the sum of your disability, your disability is your ability"

I'm hearing impaired, I use my eyes as my ears. My lack of hearing is my ability, it has never been a disability for me.

I can read lips and people like hearing people hear them.

My kids with Autism absolutely know right from wrong and can own their words and actions. If kids on the spectrum can do this than a grown man can too.

Own your actions, the only stupid mistake is the one you don't learn from.

 

[Aniseed Toffee]

Right; I said I would not reply again, but by saying it was relationship suicide, I was not referring to a love relationship but rather the support ending via my confessions and the antics all noted here. OK?

There were other inaccuracies in the replies. Was anyone left feeling confused dot com over my posts?

Hopefully this time next month, I will not be on my way back to jail, because if your hearing is early one morning and you are going to jail, you are kept in the holding cells until the meat wagon takes you there, so to speak. But that is usually around the time folk get their dinner.

 

[lenzi]

Not understanding this pm I received from Aniseed Toffee. I tried replying to the pm but received a message that the user is not accepting incoming private messages.

For privacy reasons I will not disclose the text of the pm but I will include the link that was in the pm.

Not sure why he chose to share this with me but it appears that our friend "Peter" has been banned from countless internet forums for being a troll and using sock puppets.

http://api.viglink.com/api/click?fo...ttp://encyclopediadramatica.se/Grace_Saunders

Grace Saunders aka Peter Anderson, is the root user of thousands of sockpuppet accounts used on multiple forums and sites, including ED. The user is a mentally ill man and attention wh*re from Leith, Scotland who, despite his best efforts, is still not an Internet celebrity.

 

[Aniseed Toffee]

Why do you think it is called a "private message"? I sent it to you then you link to that vile site and expose my real name. Yeah. Really nice...

I tried posting multiple times on these forums, to justify why I did what I done. And you just tear the posts apart. All of them. You were not in any of these situations. You cannot know what it felt like being the subject of their torture, their ignorance and their wicked ways. You can think I brought it upon myself, but I did no such thing. I only had good intentions in EVERY SINGLE ONE of these cases, whether it was the Internet drama, my ex-partner or the support workers.

At least these guys at Wrong Planet were nice and not flame baiting me (the way 90% of most Internet tough guys, trolls or generally obnoxious people do online).

Post 6281177 - (I've been remanded in jail twice, over my support workers!)

Better times.

thewildwest - YouTube

I said I won't respond again and I will try not to carry this on. But I think some folk are quite insensitive when it comes to knowing what I've been through.

Edit: I hope I am not wasting my time repeating my justifications over and over again, but it looks like maybe I am.

 

[PBear]

Having good intentions is meaningless when you're disobeying court orders and stalking people. The sooner you realize these people were just doing their jobs and not looking for a relationship, the better off you'll be.

C