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This is really sad, but that is exactly how i feel. After more than 10 years of marriage to a wonderful man, I am in a point of my life where I am ready to stop wasting my time and make a decision while I am still "young enough" to start all over again, but at the same time I am afraid I might end up alone with out kids. We do not have kids and it has been a conscientious decision up until it hit me that I am 35 and this ca be my chance to be a mother, what if i just have a kid and then ask for divorce later? or should I just get the guts to make a decision now??? Have any of you read the book too good to leave to bad to stay? that is how I feel, he is a wonderful man but i think i finally got tired of his depressions, his low self steam, not knowing where he wants to go in life, not bringing enough money home, I can go on and on and on, but all those things are not that bad, he is an artist after all and I guess al artists are the same right? I do not think the problem is him, the problem it's without a doubt me. I want a man who is strong, who know what he wants, who is confident and at the same time a man who has other things that my husband has....I have been considering divorce or at least a separation for the past 5 years and I am too afraid to do anything about it. I am afraid I might end up regretting my decision because I know he is a good man. We do not even fight, but I can't stand the movies he likes, the friends he likes the kind of things he likes anymore, we do not even enjoy the same kind of food.....we have not been to counseling because he has no idea I feel this way and I have no idea how to bring it up....I am exhausted....i do not know where to begin...I see friends divorcing and instead of feeling sorry for them, I envy their strength to make the decision and move on with their lives. I should just suck it up and be thankful to have a good faithful man, have a family and stop complaining but the idea of living the same thing for the next 20 years just drives me insane.....help help help....