Hi everyone. I have been hanging on to a relationship for the longest time. We have been together for 15 years and he decided he was going to take a new job 8 hours away. He leaves next Wednesday for that. We have two young sons and I wasn’t sure that I wanted to move. So last week he says he wants to separate. However he was still staying in our house but began leaving every night to go hang out with people who he’s never hung out with before. One happened to be a single female. He even went out to dinner with her just the two of them and he ended up “sleeping on her couch” that night. I logged in to our phone account and seen page after page of them texting back and forth all day long. After I confronted him about the texts he said he wanted a divorce because I was being mean. So now I’m falling apart knowing he’s out with this girl every night while I’m at home taking care of the two kids he’s basically abandoning. We haven’t had the best marriage. He’s emotionally abusive and tells me whenever he’s mad that he hopes I get in my car and die among other things. I haven’t been happy in a long time so I keep trying to tell myself that divorce will be a good thing but I’m overwhelmed with everything and extremely depressed. It shocks me how fast he found someone else and rubs it in my face although he claims they’re just friends. I’m scared to be alone and never finding the person who will love me for me because I have along history of picking terrible guys.