Im finally at the end, I can't take anymore! This man will not keep a job to help support his family for nothing and it's so sad. I work from home full time dealing with angry customers, so it's very frustrating. I love my job I make good money but I didn't get married and have 4 kids just to be doing it alone. He done went on so many interviews this year, most of them hired him he will work a few days and quit. Gets really defensive when I talk about a job to him. Not really a good father because he only discipline our kids instead of building a bond with them. They afraid to even come to him and talk about anything. What annoys me the most is he still expects sex. We literally don't talk or have a connection. I've tried to talk to him about taking care of his self more, seeing a Dr etc and he gets upset about that. He has let his own self go and talk alot about his childhood and how he was brought up. Everytime our kid does some he always comparing them to him as a kid. I'm not secually attracted to my husband anymore like I get anxiety if he touch me. I guess this is a chapter of my life were I just got to end, because expecting him to change and he hasn't yet will continue to be a waste of my time.
Get angry enough at yourself and channel that anger into actually divorcing and leaving.
Stop tolerating it.
If he's always been like this the entire relationship, why marry him and conceive children with him??
If he showed zero interest in being a parent to the first child, why keep having more with him??
Learn how to love yourself enough to divorce.
Divorce and continue to learn how to love yourself.
You have very little to no self esteem and respect.
Stop intentionally tramautizing your children.
Get out of that dysfunctional and toxic environment.
They deserve a chance at peace.
Also, I highly advise that you stop conceiving children with him.
I highly advise that you stop being physically active with him too.
He's done nothing to deserve you, your body, your womb repeatedly.
Let him find someone else to mooch off of.