I am sorry to hear about your situation.
It sounds to me like your husband wanted to pull the plug the last time he was home, got cold feet (about leaving), and then had 2 months in Afghanistan to get his nerve up to leave.
He sounds like a coward when it comes to your relationship. It's hard to tell if it's guilt -- he must realize he is being a jerk -- or if he is avoiding conflict/ emotional outbursts. If your H is worried about conflict, he might be able to give you answers if you text him. it might be easier for him to respond if you are not face to face.Ultimately, it doesn't matter. What matters is that he walked out and that you may never get a good explanation for how he reached that decision in his mind.
The important thing for you to do is to take charge of your life. If at all possible get into counseling or find someone to help you work through your confusion, anger, & pain. Take good care of yourself physically -- remember to sleep, eat, exercise.
It sounds to me like your husband wanted to pull the plug the last time he was home, got cold feet (about leaving), and then had 2 months in Afghanistan to get his nerve up to leave.
He sounds like a coward when it comes to your relationship. It's hard to tell if it's guilt -- he must realize he is being a jerk -- or if he is avoiding conflict/ emotional outbursts. If your H is worried about conflict, he might be able to give you answers if you text him. it might be easier for him to respond if you are not face to face.Ultimately, it doesn't matter. What matters is that he walked out and that you may never get a good explanation for how he reached that decision in his mind.
The important thing for you to do is to take charge of your life. If at all possible get into counseling or find someone to help you work through your confusion, anger, & pain. Take good care of yourself physically -- remember to sleep, eat, exercise.