My husband and I have been together for 3 years and married for 1. After almost two years of being together he decided to ask me if I would be willing to show my body off on webcam for others. I hated the idea and said no. Eventually, after months of pestering me, I agreed to do it as a "one time" thing. He ended up convincing me to do it more often, despite me telling him how much I hated it. We then got to a point where it was an almost daily occurrence and I told him I had had enough. He agreed to me stopping for a few weeks, then it began again so I figured I'd start doing it for money so at least I'd be getting something out of it. When I decided I'd had enough of that I told him he could still take some dirty photos of me. He then began begging me to let him upload them on the internet. I eventually gave in to his guilt trips but allowed him to only upload a select few. Weeks later I discovered that he was uploading VERY revealing pictures of me which he knew I had asked him not to upload. We discussed it, he apologized then we moved on. A week after that (today) I discovered he had uploaded a photo almost identical to the one that he had just removed, and that the one he had removed was now circling the internet. I confronted him about it and, again, he apologized and removed it. Now he is expecting me to help him "get off" and he expects me to do that for him every night, no matter how I want to spend my night. I suffer from severe depression and bpd, and it has peaked since he began, in my words, using me for his own pleasure despite how I felt. What can I do? He makes me feel so bad for being "boring" in bed, but I really do try to make an effort when he's not trying to get me to do things that make me feel absolutely disgusted with myself.