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My boyfriend of 5 years always put me on a pedestal, he knew that I had been burned in the past- and always did everything he could to put my mind at ease... I found him in a relationship with another girl at the beginning of this month. At first he apologized profusely, cried like a child, and insisted he felt like he was just going through the motions with this girl. I had no way to confront him in person since this month we are in different states. I decided to try and work things out, but after 2 weeks of him really supporting me through it all, he completely quit putting in any effort. When I finally did get him on the phone he promised me on his life that he just needed time and space to get his head on right, because I had been so good to him all these years and I deserved nothing less than perfect. I truly believed him, and the very next day found the same girls twitter account that had pics of them together. There are so many emotions that clog my head. All my friends and family keep saying is "move on" "let's go to the club tonight" ... I feel like my best friend died and I'm not even in the same state to look at his casket for closure. Everytime I envision moving on...I remember the perfectly wonderful things about my boyfriend and how no other man will compare- then I think about the fact that he had all of my trust and set it on fire, not once but twice! I cannot imagine dating again, it is too exhausting and I fear I will never be able to trust another human being for the rest of my life. Everyone keeps saying move on, but no one can tell me how?