THIS is heartbreaking...I hope you aren't still in such an unloving relationship...anyone deserves better!Not to be a downer, but it doesn’t happen any more. Neither does simple loving touch. Or sleeping in the same bed.
I don’t recall her initiating at all in the last 10 years, and maybe only a handful in the 16 years prior to that.
It stopped happening with a head turn away from a would-be kiss. After years, I finally got the message.