Brief summary of my story. I have posted before. My husband and I had a great relationship for the first 10 months and it all changed due to one little phone call from his ex, he had no control over it and didn't respond. But due to my stupid fears even though we were engaged I acted like a major dumb *ss because I was scared he would go back,so yes I was an idiot and changed toward him and pushed him away.
He said since that day I changed and turned away from him. But he stayed and wanted to marry me anyway. Why I dont't know! Well dealing with me acting the way I have has caused him to change. He is bitter, angry, and resentful toward me and how can I blame him.
He told me I will never be happy till I stop being so unhappy with how things have gotten. And than he asked me if I ever thought if I could be happy with him again? And that this is so hard for him because he used to make me so happy and I was smiling and happy to see him and wanted to be near him.
I know how he feels. I also feel it. We used to adore each other, we would just beam at each other, now it seems we both feel like neither one of us can do anything right by the other one, it used to be so easy and natural.
The hard thing is all the wasted months (2 years come Feb if we don't stop) of the same stupid fights. Its my fault /his fault, mean hurtful things have been said, names have been called. But I know we both love each other dearly and are both hurting that we have changed toward one another, because as he said to me yesterday you used to be so content with me.
What can I do to move past the anger, hurt, the resentment, and get back to the loving relationship we had. Show him I am that girl he feel in love with. To live, laugh, love, and not feel like life is so ughh. I know we both long to feel the way we did. I miss the way he used to look at me so happily, and he so misses my affection. I will appreciate any thoughts.
He said since that day I changed and turned away from him. But he stayed and wanted to marry me anyway. Why I dont't know! Well dealing with me acting the way I have has caused him to change. He is bitter, angry, and resentful toward me and how can I blame him.
He told me I will never be happy till I stop being so unhappy with how things have gotten. And than he asked me if I ever thought if I could be happy with him again? And that this is so hard for him because he used to make me so happy and I was smiling and happy to see him and wanted to be near him.
I know how he feels. I also feel it. We used to adore each other, we would just beam at each other, now it seems we both feel like neither one of us can do anything right by the other one, it used to be so easy and natural.
The hard thing is all the wasted months (2 years come Feb if we don't stop) of the same stupid fights. Its my fault /his fault, mean hurtful things have been said, names have been called. But I know we both love each other dearly and are both hurting that we have changed toward one another, because as he said to me yesterday you used to be so content with me.
What can I do to move past the anger, hurt, the resentment, and get back to the loving relationship we had. Show him I am that girl he feel in love with. To live, laugh, love, and not feel like life is so ughh. I know we both long to feel the way we did. I miss the way he used to look at me so happily, and he so misses my affection. I will appreciate any thoughts.
